Saturday, November 8, 2008

The Turtles said it.


The days of parenting one child are numbered for us. Tessa will unknowingly step into the shoes of "big sister". I feel like I am cheating her in some strange way. I have become increasingly aware of the little moments we have together. I spend more time cuddling and snuggling with her, and I love to just watch her play. I dedicate "Happy Together" to my precious princa:


Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together


If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together


I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life


Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together


I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life


Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together


Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-baBa-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together


So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
Happy together
So happy together
So happy together (ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba)


Thoughts on baby number two.


My God, my God! Help me! It's about to begin!!!


Dear Lord, PLEASE make this baby come right at 37 weeks. I can't stand being pregnant any longer than that!


Father, I wish I wasn't pregnant. OK, I wish I wasn't having another child. Please reverse time to March so I can start over. I SOOOOOO don't want to do this.


What's he going to be like? Will he look like his daddy? Will he have blue eyes and dark hair? Will he have long eye lashes? Will he laugh early and have dimples?


WOW! I can't wait to experience having a boy! It will be like the tomboy coming back out in me. I have always done better with guys.


I don't know if I will like having a boy. I mean, they are so........boyish! They like bugs and boogers! They don't have cute clothes like girls do! Their hair is basically one style forever! And they don't *gasp* like to shop!!!!!!


And the tumbling conflicting mass of thoughts goes round and round in my head like the clothes in my washing machine are doing right now. By the way, I totally waited until I only had one pair of clean undies before I broke down and did laundry this time. At this rate, there will be fungus growing on all the surfaces of my house when we bring Todd Junior home. The gripping fear and the awesome wonderment are still duking it out for control. The worst part is having to filter out the nay-sayers. There are several people in my life who just fill me up with negative thoughts. They mean well (I think), but they give me that pitiful head-tilt and wish me luck. Or they share all of their war stories. I say "war stories" because some people make having two children sound like the hardest, most grueling, in-the-trenches job ever. I half expect them to start pulling up their pants legs to show me scars or thump their scalp where the metal plate had to be installed in their head after the Battle of the Legos. Fortunately, the Lord has seen fit to bless me with some optimistic friends who realistically represent the challenges but at the same time gloriously embellish the good things.
Don't worry though. I fully intend to use some of the entries of this blog to represent the changing realities of the Todd household. And I will embellish the good as much as possible because life is better for everyone that way.
Quote of the day:
"Hold onto your butts!" said by Samuel L. Jackson in Jurassic Park.

2 comments:

Melanie said...

I have to tell you I love having two children I would never trade it for the world. It has its moments but when my boys hug, play together, show thoughtfullness toward each other and even defend for each other it makes it all worth it. I esp love listening to Bret give Nathan big brother adive lately, it just makes me smile. I wish you luck and will keep you in my prayers over the next few weeks/years! We love you all!
Melanie

Abbie said...

I feel so many of the same things you do! About boys, though- they are more fun than I thought they would be. And so LOW drama. Just think how much easier the pre-teen years will be!!!! That always makes me feel great.